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Monday, September 17, 2012 @ 2:18 AM I've been so busy these few weeks that life's basically been a blur really - not quite what I had envisioned when I made the resolution to keep myself busy this year, but I guess it's passable. It's kind of a sad but good thing when you're so caught up with the deadlines you have to meet, the things you have to complete, and the expectations you have to live up to that you don't have much time left for yourself. Indeed, there's less time for introspection, but at the same time there's also less time to overthink and to mope around. Looking back, I really have no idea what I've been doing ever since I came back from Canada. First week started out fine - I was motivated to do well in school, there was a bit of nostalgia here and there, stress started escalating, but everything seemed pretty alright. Not too bad, I suppose. Then I fell into the whirlpool of deadlines and routine and never-ending work and lethargy. Everyday, I'm just trying to finish the work that I have on hand, last through the night (with 5 cups of tea and 3 cups of coffee - it never works) and stay awake in school. Most of the time I'll crash at 11, and suddenly wake up at 3 remembering all the work that I've yet to complete. A boring, boring life. I don't see the point in my life right now, but all I know is that I only have 15 more months to survive, and that I have to do my very best in every single thing before the end of 2013 comes. And to find out what I want to do with my life. |
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